- Friday, August 29th

Summer 2014 - Fat Ass Songs That Have Gone Astray (Or Have They?)


I understood what a majority of people felt about Meghan Trainor's "About the Bass." Honestly, I like the song. It’s cute to me, especially when I add it to my workout playlists. It gets me out of my seat, I wiggle my butt, and fat girls have a specific song dedicated to them. This is a nice change. I, though tiny in height, am a fat girl. I can rock to this song, but it does come along with a bit of guilt.

I don’t have all my fat in "all the right places" but I chose to pay more attention to the line ”every inch of you is perfect, from the bottom to the top.” It’s the body-positive line I agree with. 

Of course, the song has the problem of calling skinny girls “skinny bitches." I agree with most about this, one-hundred percent. Yet, Meghan is one of those plus-sized model archetypes that mainstream (Haaaa.) fashion loves - nice chest, big butt, flat stomach and tall. I am so tired of this in many ways, because short fat women are here too, but it’s a song that tries to practice self-love. I’m okay with that. I’m not “taking” what I can get only, because I see it for its faults. White girl singing a bluesy/R&B/pop song, POC dancing in the background like props. Yeah, I see it.

Now when Nicki Minaj said “Fuck them skinny bitches” on "Anaconda", I laughed so hard. Not to spite you skinnier folk. Nah. But you don’t find it ironic as hell that this mini rapper is telling you off when she’s skinny, too? Nicki has an ass but she is t-i-n-y.

When Nicki released the album cover, there were critiques and open letters against the image, because she was crouched down and showing off her ass. (See this letter here and another critic here) Nicki made it a point to mention other models showing off their skinnier buns that were deemed acceptable, yet she was “unacceptable.” (See the Sports Illustrated image in this article here.)

Jennifer Lopez is the woman from the block who brought the ass back into pop culture since the 90s. You can’t tell me she’s the original booty girl, because I’d have to point you in the direction of former pin up girls and Iris Chacon, a Puerto Rican singer & dancer from the 70s and 80s, known for having a pretty derriere. Well Jennifer has a song titled "Booty" that will have Iggy Azalea on the remix. I might have to ignore that one, but this is a rarity to have 3 big-ass songs, out at the same time, from WOMEN who are celebrating what they have. Now, I don’t care how these women got their bodies (be it from genes or shots), they’re still trying to get their fans to celebrate themselves, too. 

This is where you counter the above: Having a big ass is mentioned all the time in music/videos/society you say? All the rappers and rockers love the big-bottomed girls so much they come up with songs to celebrate us? Uh no. They love whom they call “thick girls” - women who have skinny waists, yet ass and thighs for days. If you have big boobs as well, AMAZING! YOU’RE THE PERFECT SPECIMEN. Here’s what Sir-Mix-A-Lot had to say about big women:

"And Sir-Mix-a-Lot still feels the need to point out that he’s not talking about big girls — he’s referring to “Shakira or J.Lo at her peak… a 22-inch waist with 35-inch, 38-inch ass.” “I’ve seen girls that look like me and been like, ‘Ohhhhh, I’m Baby’s got Back!’” he told the Village Voice in 2011. “And I’m like, ‘No, no, no, no.’ It wasn’t ‘Baby Got Back and Center, and Middle, and Front.’ ” - (Source: Flavorwire)

Thanks, ya jerk.

So when Natalia Kills went off on Twitter about women bullying those who are less than size 6, I really wanted to shake her. For someone who has claims to being a feminist, I thought it was uproariously narrow of her to give this rant:

With these tweets, I can see where Natalia Kills believes that she’s being helpful and inspirational. I’m not sure if she went through her own phase of being bullied, because these tweets do sound like they could come from a place of hurt. But for Natalia to say that “size 2 models aren’t there to visually victimize us…" Girl. Models are there to represent what the industry thinks we should aspire to be, including their unnatural sizes. Mainstream fashion industry DOES NOT LIKE FAT WOMEN. I repeat: MAINSTREAM FASHION INDUSTRY DOES. NOT. LIKE. FAT. WOMEN.

Does Natalia have a morphed view about sizes?: “Why are we publicly deemed “skinny BITCHES” if we’re naturally smaller than sz 6? Horrified i’m considered a bitch for not being overweight.” Sooo, because of a song that appeals to curvy women, we see that there is a chance Natalia Kills believes that “curvy” means “overweight.” I’m willing to give this a benefit of a doubt, because she was obviously passionate when writing these tweets.

"Small framed models are used in Ad’s so that the focus stays on the product being advertised, not the sexually appealing curves of the model." I was never an art student nor am I savvy in these things. But, what the fuck? Advertisement uses sex to sell their products all the time. Sex sells. Small framed models are used because this is what mainstream media thinks is “acceptable.”

"Larger framed women need to stop bullying/victimizing girls with small frames, less voluptuous figures as if they’re unattractive/anorexic"…I can write a whole dissertation about how she is both wrong and right. However, she has such a narrowed sense of focus claiming that “larger framed women” are the problem, when it’s society as a whole. She, as a women in the industry, will always be more accepted than a fat girl. 

Well, I’m going to actually close this down because my short commentary on two songs just turned in to this massive thing that I am shocked that I wrote. This is just one fat girl’s opinion on everything. I can be wrong and judgmental but you know what I want?

I want every women to band together and realize that they are sexy, beautiful and gorgeous, NO MATTER WHAT SIZE. We really can change the world if we thought better of ourselves. Body positive ideals for all! 

- Thursday, August 28th

Thanks everyone for the love on “Feature Presentation”.<3

Remember, if you have any opinions, I’d love to hear them. Constructive criticism helps one grow, after all.

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- Wednesday, August 27th

To get the  Blanche Deveraux gif by endemictoearth… whooooo! 

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- Wednesday, August 27th

Of course this would happen to me.

I was wondering why my story was extra long…sorry if I confused anyone! Not sure how it got double posted, but okay. I fixed it. 

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#stupid smut

- Wednesday, August 27th


I was tagged by sassy-curmudgeon, or forced to answer these questions, whatever lol.

Always post the rules 
Answer the questions the person who tagged you wrote and write your 11 new questions.
Tag 11 new people. 
Tell them you’ve tagged them 
@ me so I can see your answer.

1.) Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets, and why? Sunsets. I think they’re prettier. :-)

2.) What is your favorite swear word? FUCCCCCKKKk.

3.) Imagine if you had to choose exclusively between great food OR great sex, for the rest of your life. Which would you choose? Well when you’ve had mediocre sex before…I think I’ll choose the food because I’m pretty sure I ain’t having sex ever again. Ever.

4.) What is your best worst joke? Uh…it’s too late for me to think. Well, today I told someone I didn’t come here to make friends. Here being work. I think they believe I’m a cute jokester. I wasn’t kidding.

5.) Do you believe in ghosts? Affirmative. I don’t mess with the supernatural for a reason.

6.) How about an afterlife? It’s definitely around. 

7.) Describe the perfect date. (as in with a romantic partner, not like that chick answered in ‘Miss Congeniality’.) Funny you pose this question while I was feeling sad about being single lol. I am all for a Netflix night with Chinese food, and a few cuddles on a couch. See, I don’t aim for too much.

8.) If an evil army invaded your country, would you rush out to defend your homeland, or get your ass out because fuck everyone else? No judgement. This is a fucking weird question, Stef. Stop watching so much SciFi late at night. I’d do whatever is best for my family. 

9.) What was the weirdest dream you’ve ever had? A dream where I was watching a movie with Dylan O’Brien, Avan Jogia, and Nico. Even in my dream, I knew it was one and was pissed I wasn’t having sex with one instead of watching a stupid movie. 

10.) Does the scope of the universe scare you? A little bit. It’s so vast and there are so many things that you’re not aware of.

11.) Do you bite the limbs off animal crackers/gummy bears and make them writhe in agony and beg for mercy? (I do.)  - …This doesn’t surprise me about you, girl. Not one bit. I don’t eat either of those things LOL.

I don’t have any questions, because I lack creativity. :-D 

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- Wednesday, August 27th

Music TAG!

Music Tag

I was tagged by niicocristianmirallegro

You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your ipod, phone, iTunes, media player etc. And write down the first 20 songs, then pass this on to other people. One rule: no skipping

  1. The Notwist - Pick Up the Phone
  2. Kiley Minogue - Can’t Get You Out of my Head
  3. Bloc Party - Plans 
  4. M.I.A. - Exodus (ft. The Weeknd)
  5. Christina Aguilera - We Remain
  6. Muse - Panic Station 
  7. Korn - Twisted Transistor 
  8. The Killers - Smile Like You Mean It
  9. Kendrick Lamar - Swimming Pools (Drank) *I’m surprised it took me this long to get to a rap song.*
  10. Michael Jackson - Slave to the Rhythm 
  11. Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams
  12. Drake - Over
  13. Imagine Dragons - On Top of the World
  14. Jadakiss - Why (ft. Anthony Hamilton) 
  15. The Weeknd - Live For (ft. Drake) 
  16. Or Nah (Remix ft The Weeknd) -The Weeknd
  17. Bloc Party - Ares
  18. Lorde - Everybody Wants to Rule the World
  19. Major Lazer - Get Free
  20. No Doubt - Spiderwebs

Tagging: slothpaws aspiringpolymath sassy-curmudgeon bflute06 tinychemicals greenangelheart butstilli elasticheart-downtown stuffbystef

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#interesting #lol

- Wednesday, August 27th

Feature Presentation

Writer’s Note: HEY GUYS! I wrote some smut! My first one ever! Uh, the first draft took me two hours to write, but 1.5 weeks to edit to my liking. I feel if I try to edit anymore, it’ll never get out. ch1darkcy and slothpaws beta’d this for me during the first edit, AND I THANK YOU LADIES SO FUCKING MUCH! Of course, I’d appreciate any constructive criticism because like I said, first time writing anything sexy, and IT WAS HARD. But I think…I liked it?

Anywho, I’m a huge fan of foreplay. Everyone should be. So this is what this is about. Major foreplay. *cough*

Tagging: sassy-curmudgeon endemictoearth tinychemicals greenangelheart uhhhh. I know other people wanted to be tagged for my other story, but I’ll be on the safe side and not tag you for smut lol.

Okay…well, here it is.


“Finn, you sure you want to do this?”

Finn was dying for this moment. Earlier at the cinema, Rae kept touching his thighs to his knee, smirking when she would catch him shift to get more comfortable. She saw that he would – ahem – grow, but it didn’t stop her from reaching his zipper, fingertips burning a path through material to skin. At the risk of being insufferable, he finally shifted over and kissed her gruffly, catching her bottom lip between his teeth to nibble. Finn moved his left arm to rest across her shoulders, while the other would try to caress a boob that was covered with too many layers. A few moments of kissing left Rae moaning lightly, so Finn moved his head to the shell of her ear, to bite the skin and whisper all his fantasies they had yet to try. He knew words could torture her best and it was his moment to smirk at the predicament she placed herself in.

Fast forward to a few hours later, Rae made sure to grab his hand so they can rush back to his empty. Once in his room, there were gasps, curses, and clothes being ripped off until Finn had Rae exactly where he wanted her. However, before he can make a move, Rae poised her question, the insecurities clearing the fog that was shuffling his brain. Biting back a groan, he gave himself a second for restraint and forced himself to sit on his haunches. He had to adjust himself as his eyes raked over her body, only in bra and panties, on her stomach, head tilted to hear his response. He had to make sure she was comfortable.

“Rae, I wanted to do this for a very long, long time. Are you ok? I promise I’m not going to hurt you, but if you rather not -”

Finn pulled back again as Rae shook her head. “No. It’s just…ya not facing me…”

Moving off the bed, he went to the opposite edge to face Rae. Giving her a few minutes, he calmly looked in to her eyes, hoping his facial expression can say it all. Finn’s fingers trailed from her hair to shoulders, back and forth.

Finally, he turned his finger nails down to her skin softly, trailing from neck to her bra straps. “I want every single part of ya, girl. Every bit. Trust when I say that I will always want to look at you when I make you scream.” Rae twisted her lips to a smirk, that’s his girl. “But there are other things I can do that will make you feel good. I WANT to always make you feel good. Is that ok?”

Rae breathed deeply and nodded. He smiled brightly, happy that she trusted him enough to try this. Finn jumped back up, taking off his shirt and jeans before he was back near her feet on the bed. Funny, he never realized how cute Rae’s toes were, especially when they were trying to curl and hide in his blankets. Hmm.

He grabbed one leg, ignoring the slight pull she gave when he caught her off guard. Rae’s calves were both curvy and muscular; and he knew that he would find biting the skin arousing. Which, okay. He was gone after this girl. But Finn went back to her foot, slowly outlining the arch, the ball, and each toe. Then he moved his hands up from behind her knees, dragging both hands down each leg, feeling the goosebumps follow. Her skin was so delicate here, body responding by squirming as he continued to tickle her. Finn heard the puffs of air she was breathing out. He stored this into his memory bank, knowing that he will always use to his advantage.

He hadn’t even started and already he had enough information to please her.

Finn went back to her knees, his body hovering over legs still a bit flushed from caresses. He gave Rae a second to adjust and get comfortable again, but saw that the tension was back in her shoulders. This wasn’t going to do. Finn tested to see if he could reach high enough, and when finding success, began to knead both of her shoulders. Rae relaxed deeper in to the pillow, letting out soft sighs. It was becoming too much. The sound waves seemed to hit all the way to his dick, but he made sure to hold back from rubbing her ass. Nope, this was all for her and he wasn’t going to ruin it.

Nope. Not going to rub his hard dick on her…shit okay, focus Nelson.

Rae’s hair kept getting in the way of his massage, but he was careful enough not to pull. When she seemed to melt under him, content and giggling, Finn dragged his hands down, back to her bra strap. Then he would take his fingernails and trail against the lines of the bra, watching the goosebumps pop back up. Oh, this was his favorite. The fact that she was letting him have his way, doing all that he wanted. Which, he wanted the bra off. Never say that he never follows through, because finally, her back was naked and exposed to him. So he crawled up higher and began his attack.

Finn went from Rae’s left shoulder to her right, making sure that he grabbed her hair and pushed it all to the side, not one strand in the way. When he placed a kiss on Rae’s shoulder, he felt her stifle a giggle, but he wanted more. He made sure that he held each wrist on either side of her head, making sure to hold down enough where she couldn’t squirm away. He began biting and sucking a path from the left to the right, watching his art bloom, perfect skin turning purple in front of his face. Sweat began to bead on his forehead, each time Rae moaned louder. It’ll never be enough. He tried to lick a line down her spine, but when his tongue dried out not even halfway down her back, he gave up and bit down instead.

When he reached the base of her spine, Finn nipped at her skin from one side to another, right above her underwear. Rae’s skin flushed when he finally let go of her wrists, instead placing this hands on either side of her waist.

“Finn, this is too much…”

“Rae, just…I promise it’ll be good.”

He let his tongue dabble underneath the elastic of her underwear. It was getting hotter and the room began to swirl. He was ready to mash his face in between her legs, but again, restraint. See, Rae had this beautiful ass that he couldn’t help but grab hold off when they were kissing. He didn’t pay enough attention to it, so here was his chance now.

Slowly, his hands traveled, fingers underneath the elastic to drag the material down. Once she was halfway exposed, he began to push both cheeks together and knead. He was delighted to see how red her skin turned when he pinched her, believing that if she loved what he did earlier, she’d love this more. Rae was trembling. When he breathed on her skin, Finn felt her shake – which made him stupid, because he just went and ripped her underwear off. The stupid fabric was getting in the way of his tongue!

Finn saw the trembling but decided to ignore his favorite spot for the moment. He nosed the back of her thighs, nibbling up towards her ass, but never going further. He licked, he bit, he sucked, claimed her skin, making her moan loudly. Finn had to reach down to his boxers and wrapped his hand around his, squeezing, needing the pressure to help him continue. While he moaned, Rae almost lost it and pushed her thighs against his face. Finn smiled and smacked her ass lightly, but it just turned Rae on even more. Rae pushed back again, but this time he held her down a little, smacking a little more against each cheek. Nothing to hurt her with, just another way to see her skin turn red, but it’s affects on Rae had her on edge. This time, he didn’t hesitate to kiss and bite more red marks into her skin.

“Okay, okay.” Finn rested his head against her ass again, trying to breath deeply. Everything was now in bright technicolor, where he didn’t know he could take anymore. This small experiment was working out too well, but if he didn’t get a move on…well, he was sure he’d come in his boxers, untouched. Rae cried out. She needed a release. She needed Finn to get her there.

“Rae, just one more thing.” “I don’t think I can anymore. I need you. If you don’t I swear I will…” Rae had reached down in between her legs, her fingers poised to go in when Finn grabbed her hand.

“STOP! No…I don’t…I don’t think I can watch you…just let me. Ok? I promise we’re almost done.”

Finn decided to better act now before she finished herself. He leaned back more, admiring the sheen of sweat covering her skin and the purple marks he created. He had an idea, but he didn’t know if Rae would feel comfortable. So, he tried talking to her to make sure. “Rae, there is one last thing I always wanted to do, but you might not feel comfortable. I need you to trust that it’s okay. Right?”

Rae seemed fogged up in arousal to give a fuck about his warning. She wanted anything that would put a stop to the throbbing. As delicious as it was to feel this way, she needed a release. “What?”

After sucking another mark into her left cheek, Finn turned Rae over to lay on her back. “I know we haven’t done this before but…just let me.”

Kneeling in between her legs, he watched down to her face to make sure all was okay. When she nodded her head, trusting him, he grabbed her ankles to drag her closer. Rae widened her eyes in shock, but couldn’t even fathom telling him off about that when he dived his face right in to her -


Rae was still gasping for air and staring at the ceiling when she heard Finn laughing. He opened his arms so she can move closer, Finn pulling her tight to his chest. “Was everything ok? Did you like it?”

“I’m not even sure what to say. It was…wow.” She rolled her eyes when he saw his smug look. “How come we didn’t do all of that sooner?”

Smug look turning bashful, he bit his lower lip. “Well…there are a few more things we can try. Also…” She felt him wiggle closer, his hard-on poking her ass. Rae feels her blood rising to her cheeks when he decides to take off his boxers right then and there. “There’s something else I wanted to do. You can watch if it makes you comfortable…”

Rae leaned closer to him, reaching behind her to grab him. “Or…you can let me do the work this time.”  

- Tuesday, August 26th






When spoken word artist Brenna Twohy tells you that she is an unabashed devotee of all things “Potterotica” — erotic fiction based in the magical universe of Harry Potter — your response probably shouldn’t be that her taste is “unrealistic.” 

Watch her full monologue here. 

(Source: National Poetry Slam uploaded by Button Poetry)

I’m happy to be getting to the point where I don’t have to feel weird about enjoying fanfiction, or having written a bunch of it. Partly it’s that the fandom experience has become more broadly shared. Partly it’s that I stopped giving a shit.

And as for why I like the porny sort of fanfiction, see above. She says it better.

I like sex with context. I like sex when it involves fully fleshed out characters. I like the backstories. I like feeling like these people do other things when they aren’t having sex.

Also, I’d just like to point out that it is incredibly empowering that thousands upon thousands of women, girls and non-binary folks have rejected an abusive porn industry designed by men and catering to men and benefiting men and instead created a safe space to explore their sexuality on their own terms. Sex with context, sex with characters they know, sex that is approachable and enjoyable to them, and completely without the help of a very small group of men telling them what to like, how to like it and how to feel about their own sexuality. 

That is healthy. That is positive. That is glorious. Defend erotic fanfiction and defend the people who read it.

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- Tuesday, August 26th

Under the Tunisian Moon - Chapter 2


A/N: You guys!!! I’m totally overwhelmed by all the lovely things you’ve said about this fic! Thank you all for reading, liking, and reblogging, with extra special thanks with a cherry on top for you wonderful souls who commented! (Most especially:

  • ch1darkcy (I can’t BELIEVE you graced me with a Beyonce gif! I’m not worthy!) 
  • itsmirallegro (Queen of AUs? I don’t know, you have a strong claim to that crown yourself, m’dear!) 
  • thisissomefreshbullshit (Your comments are always so comprehensively amusing and make me blush!) 
  • teastaindiary (I have little hearts floating around my head after your comments!) 
  • idontcareifyoudontbelieveme (I really hope your heart doesn’t actually explode, but I’m so glad you’re liking it so far!) 
  • lametwentysomething (I’d lend you some batteries any day!) 
  • gushington-central (A reader is never a third wheel, but I get your meaning. Thanks!)
  • EVERYONE ELSE - You are all the best!)

Fair warning, this chapter is a little more interpersonal than travel/destination, but I plan much more of that for the next chapter … so watch this space! I hope you’ll like what I’ve written, anyway.

I’m tagging/mentioning people who expressed an interest in the prompt or directly requested to be tagged. If you don’t want to be on this list, let me know! If I’ve missed your url, let me know and I’ll add it next time!

boysweatandckone theblanknotebook someday-youwillfindme tinakegg luvs-jade musicfreak1 broughttoyoubythelettera chrryblsms kneekeyta thisissomefreshbullshit old-lady-at-heart areyousad8118 nipasir ducky17 milymargot teastaindiary robichaux-prefect sharoonroney sarahlouise88ni slothpaws greenangelheart celestev31 fantasticab scumothaearff bitcheslovebeck magicalgrandma kerrvorting-and-snorting ililypop gemmarstyles ilovefinnnelson sammylbc ch1darkcy anca82 idontcareifyoudontbelieveme murderyoursoul carpe-libris finnleynelson icshly adaftmyriad losingpudge heartnotbrain jackiewalsh2013 dairingoriginal lametwentysomething sunflowerdope omgbananasnailus perfecters how-ardently itsmirallegro i-love-mmfd abullofshit shadan-stone-roses 14000romances darlingdiver hohumi chicadificil raernundo gushington-central justagirlnamedkayla sassy-curmudgeon katywright340 i-dream-of-emus bitchy-broken mallyallyandra pigeonfarmrace rinncincin

It won’t let me tag these lovelies: @karinskyme @jazlikeoh @llexis @snazzy-fit @courtkismet @sleepwiththewindowsopen11 @myfinnnelsonpls, so I hope you guys see this!

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Rae had smiled all the way back to her room, smiled as she dressed for bed, and around her toothbrush as she cleaned her teeth over the tiny sink in her bathroom. She was still smiling as she settled herself against the mattress and pulled the thin blanket to cover her. The moonlight shone in and made a glowing parallelogram on the white tile floor. She turned on her side, and just as she started to fall asleep, doubt crept in at the back of her mind.

“He won’t come back, you know. He just said that to be nice.”

“So? And, anyway, how do you know? He said he would.”

Now she was having a dialogue with herself. Wonderful. Where was Kester when she needed him?

“Boys like that don’t talk to girls like you. He’s just lonely. It’s his first night in a strange place. He’ll meet someone more interesting and beautiful tomorrow.”

“Well, so what if he does? Tonight was nice, and even if he doesn’t come back, he talked to me tonight.”

“Do you even realize how pathetic you sound?”

“Shut up!” she thought to herself, grabbing her headphones and pressing play on her Discman to drown out her thoughts with the sound of Eels.

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Oh, awkward times over music. How I love this.

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#mmfd #fic rec #love

- Tuesday, August 26th








Stories that Give Me Hope.

Stories that make me cry

I’m sobbing.

what is this moisture coming from my eyes

my eyeballs are leaking


The last one though

My feels

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